Remembering those days:
Everyone must have their not so good relationship, just for fun relationship, serious relationship, just to get over the ex relationship and so on...bla bla bla..
but as for me, relationship. It can be defined as
1st : Bonding of two hearts
2nd: Partner
3rd : or just someone that you can talk to.
tak semua org, will accept us in relationship. and it goes the same to us..kan??
My story about my past relationship, isn't really a thing to brought up. But, kdg2, to think about those relationship, tergelak la plak.its like, was that me doing all those. omg, so childish.!
yela, ibarat cinta monyet kan. merajuk , bertengking bagai.haha.
my 1st cinta monyet was when i was in year 4 ,ke 5, or 6 ntah...couldnt really remember. but it was like more, 'bertepuk sebelah tangan ' la. It was when i was back in perth, Australia. Those days, what to remember!. but i was willing to do stuff, to lie stuff, just to get 'his' attention i guess. haha! pretty lawak. So bila da mature sikit, i tend to get so shy towards him because thinking what i did before. so it was like more, embarrasing moments than, love love moments. haha!
got back here (Malaysia), dapat la full attention from everyone. lagi2, that time.. my family and i just got back from 'overseas'. we were in perth, for about 5 years. so , bila balik kampung...semua jadi teruja. jadi 'famous' la plak.. but for us, its like great to be home..i got back here, when i was in form 2, stay kat sekolah kg for about 1 year. after that, we all moved to tg. malim. kat kg pun, ada jgk cinta sne sni.. tp cinta budak2 kan..haha.
So, when i was in form 3. new school, new attention (again) , new relationship .. i guess when i was in form 3 la, i learned alot about love,sikit demi sikit mature la..(ceh). i had 3 relationship, and only one of them lasted for quite such time. but at the end, masing2 buat haluan2 masing. and thats just it.
So bila hbs highschool, nak masuk form 6...again, new relationship. but this relationship was one hell of relationship. susah nak citer, and too berat to share. there's only few yg tahu kisah hidup aku . about this relationship. urm, it wasn't really like a girlfriend, boyfriend relationship. it was more like a friendship relationship. Perhaps next time I share with you.(actually , dah tulis da pun kish tuh, cume tak terpost lagi)hehe. the only thing missing about that friendship relationship story, is the tittle.. tak jumpa lagi the right tittle for it.
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Enough with those, let's begin kisah ku bersama Jejaka Sexy yang akhirnya ku Jatuh cinta.
<3
I've never met him, never heard of him.. and not even looked at him.
to be terus terang, I am now married to a man that wasn't my decision to made.
yes, true. not my lover. more correct term: parents decision. you know why, because my parents know's what is best for me.
He was my dad's students for 7 semester.
he was one of my dad best students.
he was my dad's choice.
but now, he is my dad's son in law.
and my pillow who I cannot go sleep without.=)
Just a brief and short story about this relationship...
His name is Omar Firdaus bin Mohd Said, we've got to know each other for about 3 months. (skejap sgt). and then, we got engaged. ( without thinking about what's going to happen towards my future).
yela, this guy..kenal pun kejap. Jumpe pun buleh kira la...that time banyak sgt questions that i didn't have the answers. So , it was like ..boleh dikatakan lah.. Berani Mati, taking a small big steps into getting engaged.
Close friends ada yang support, ada jugak yang risau. but it was me to decide. So, it was like. apa yang aku buat ni.betul ke?dia kah?eh, xmuda sgt ke aku ni?dah ready ke aku ni? byk sgt dlm pemikiran aku that time.
so then, without thinking. i agreed to the whole engagement thingg.
We both got engaged on the 20th february 2010, which lasted for 1 year. (In my head, I have 1 year, to get to know this man.. omg, sempat ker? ).haha.
Just to share:photo's of the engagement.
I'm Officially engaged to : Omar firdaus bin Mohd Said.
Ya Allah Yang Maha Pemurah,
terima kasih Engkau telah menciptakan dia dan mempertemukan saya dengannya.
Terima kasih untuk saat-saat indah yang boleh kami nikmati bersama.
Terima kasih untuk setiap pertemuan yang boleh kami lalui bersama.
Terima kasih untuk setiap saat-saat yang lalu.
Saya datang bersujud dihadapan-Mu,
Sucikan hati saya yaa Allah, sehingga dapat melaksanakan kehendak dan rencana-Mu dalam hidup saya.
Yaa Allah, jika saya bukan pemilik tulang rusuknya,
janganlah biarkan saya merindukan kehadirannya.
Janganlah biarkan saya melabuhkan hati saya di hatinya.
Kikislah pesonanya dari pelupuk mata saya
dan usirlah dia darI hati saya.
Gantilah damba kerinduan dan cinta yang bersemayam di dada ini dengan kasih dari dan pada-Mu yang tulus dan murni.
Tolonglah saya agar dapat mengasihinya sebagai sahabat.
Tetapi jika Kau ciptakan dia untuk saya, yaa Allah,
tolong satukan hati kami.
Bantulah saya untuk mencintai, mengerti dan menerima dia SEADANYA
Berikan saya kesabaran, ketekunan, dan kesungguhan untuk menenangkan hatinya.
Agar dia juga mencintai, mengerti dan mahu menerima saya
dengan segala kelebihan dan kekurangan saya sebagaimana saya telah Kau ciptakan.
Yakinkanlah dia bahwa saya sungguh-sungguh mencintai dan rela membagi suka dan duka saya dengan dia.
Yaa Allah Maha Pengasih, dengarlah doa saya ini.
Lepaskanlah saya dari keraguan ini menurut kasih dan kehendak-Mu.
Allah Yang Maha Kekal, saya tahu Engkau sentiasa memberikan yang terbaik buat saya.
Luka dan keraguan yang saya alami pasti ada hikmahnya.
Ajarlah saya untuk tetap setia dan sabar menanti tibanya waktu yang telah Engkau tentukan.Jadilah kehendak-Mu dan bukan kehendak saya yang jadi dalam setiap bagian hidup saya, yaa Allah.
Amin…
